Friday, March 28, 2014

Fuck you.

Unrequited love is the worst kind of love. 

Friday, March 14, 2014

Hide

Maybe I hide behind and fix other's demons so I don't have to face mine. 

Monday, March 10, 2014

Demons

The ones with the worst demons are always the ones you want the most.
Their eyes are dark and you know there is trouble festering behind them.
Even if their hands are gentle, you know they have caused harm.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

0 to 80- my note to you

Its amazing how one can go 0 to 80 in so quick of time. At least that's how I feel when dealing with you. One day you are amazing and make me feel so special. The next day you can barely spare one word for me. You drive me crazy. Certifiable, bat shit insane. I can't read you. I want to. I want to be able to. But I don't at the same time. It adds to your mystery.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Vacation

15 more days until mini vacation to Montana. I need this. I deserve this.


No, what I really deserve is a 1/2 gallon of fireball and a large amount of angry orchards.



Monday, March 3, 2014

Goals Schmoals

You know what gets you in trouble? Goals. Okay- let me specify.. long term goals. Such a scary word isn't? "Long Term" Longgggg. Something far out from the present time. I think short term goals are better. They are healthy.


My short term goals (18 hours):


1. Finish my work day.
2. Do not think about him.
3. Pick up ice for my morning smoothies.
4. Do not think about him.
5. Make dinner.
6. Stop thinking about him immediately.
7. Finish my labs.
8. Eat frozen blueberries so I do not go for ice cream.
9. Do not think about him.
10. Brush my teeth, floss and mouth wash.
11. Crawl into bed
12. Do not lay in bed and Facebook stalk him.
13. Do not think about him and how you miss him in bed with you.
14. Sleep.
15. Wake up and go to the gym.
16. Get ready for work.
17. Do not wonder if you are doing/did something wrong.
18. Make smoothie and egg whites.
19. Go to work.
20. Do not wonder if you are going to talk today.


Short term goals are so much healthier. You don't get stuck in the future and think about how you would change your whole life direction to make it work. You do not get caught up in fairytales and "what if's". You live in the now, the right now. You don't have to face the disappointment when things do not go your way. You are living for the you in right now.